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As previously reported, on Feb. 20, 2013, producers of Orphans announced that LaBeouf was leaving the production "due to creative differences," and Baldwin later explained that he was "attacked" during the rehearsal process.
In a recent interview with Interview magazine, LaBeouf describes the situation as "a heartbreak I still have not been able to recover from."
He continued, "Baldwin and I butted heads hard. I came in method. I was sleeping in the park. I'd wake up, walk to rehearsal. I was so scared to do the play that I had memorized it before ever coming to rehearsal. And my whole goal was to intimidate the f*ck out of Baldwin. That was the role. That was my job as an actor. And it wasn't going to be fake. I wanted him to be scared. So I went about doing that for three weeks of rehearsal, to the point that, in the end, it was unsustainable."
He explained that, since then, he has reconciled with Baldwin. LaBeouf said that the Orphans star "was the first dude to hit me up after I got out of court," referring to his recent bout with the law, when he was arrested for disorderly conduct at a performance of Cabaret this summer.
LaBeouf confessed that he cried after reading the email. Although he hadn't kept in touch with Baldwin since he was fired from Orphans, he admitted to following the actor home as Broadway rehearsals continued without him. "I was following him home," he admitted. "I was completely broken, and still in [character]. I didn't know what to do. I started boxing. I was trying to take my mind off the play, but I couldn't do it. So I would follow him from rehearsal to his home. I needed to have closure."
As for his behavior at Cabaret — which he recently explained on "Jimmy Kimmel Live" — he said that it was a "mistake" and that it quantifies it as "uncalculated behavior."
He said, "Really, I'm gaining control over myself again. I've given up so much control over myself to this industry. I felt like a slave who wasn't allowed to read. That's extreme, but it really is that debilitating when you have no say over it anymore. A lot of my actions in the public—and not all of them, because there have been some straight-up mistakes, like grabbing Alan Cumming's ass and getting arrested in New York at Cabaret."
LaBeouf, 28, was charged with one count of trespass and one count of criminal trespass and harassment in the second degree during his arraignment June 27 following the performance of Cabaret at Studio 54.
As previously reported, LaBeouf's case was adjourned to Nov. 12 for compliance.
Following his Cabaret outburst, LaBeouf's publicist said the actor was receiving outpatient care for addiction and that he had realized his strange behavior was a symptom of a bigger health problem.
Cumming recently spoke to Conan O'Brien about LaBeouf's Cabaret outburst. Watch that interview below: